What is Love

What is it really

Its easy - its being with the person that you would like to be with always.

At an young age, its not easy knowing that. you just think oh my god, i wanna speak to her always and keep speaking.

go home and call and speak
go school and speak during breaks
socialize during family gatherings and speak.

or

just exist
just be there
just come to work everyday
just go to church everyday
be present
that would be good

whats the point of love if you are not going to say that you love them - so you say - but if you say, they need not necessarily agree and we should be okay with that.
its karma, what we dont want from others, others dont want that from us.

so basically life is a bitch!!!

you just marry your well wishers want to see you happy with your kids, with their future grandkids!!!phew.....


No point getting angry with anyone because everything is because of you and you alone. so its easy to think that we were fucking dumb when we were young and be happy now since we are smart.
there is no point thinking if i was smart i would have got her, because you would have missed other things like pure love and friendship and innocence.
so let it go. Because eventually nothing is going to stay unless it wants to.

Reincarnation./music project

Its not good to be down. Time to make most of what you got. This is my idea that I am noting down so that I can collaborate with ppl who are into music. Definitly I am part of the project as I am going to be singing and playing the guitar :) My lead will be Mr. Boutilier The song that I would like to sing is pulli ki jaana with didi Khaled tunes....I am not going to be singing with the lyrics most of them as I cant remember that much in my hear :( We could have a paper in front of us I suppose, lets see that how goes.... I would like to add a female voice......which one....get in touch with your satsang team and see what you can do next to get someone who is professional to record our stuff and charge us.... i would love to get someone to beat the drums....i know one dude in satsang....hope he is alive, am i going to do this...i would love to but work will pull me towards the Zombie life.... lets fight it out me , mr boutilier right now , video record guy professional, female voice, drums guy.....that makes 5.... i would be the last person to sing ...lets see that this goes apparently the song is in the key of E major, i thought it was D

this was a dream that i need to think about and its weird too. I see my niece's husband at a particular distance on a isolated street in india and we take a smoke but I dont talk to him. I have never actually talked to him cause i did not feel like. and then I see this guy from Canada who is not a friend of mine but he is my FB friend and I just say a hi and have small talk ignoring the other guy and then i wake up.....one of the worst dreams that i have had, atleast weird....... is this because i cleaned up the storage room yesterday at 1701 and became tired after 1hr of cleanup work..... what is the point of that dream and y did it occur.

my dreams this happened way back when I was around 2nd or 3rd grade. My family was for reason in a forest This forest had the biggest rock in the world that could crust atleast 20 of them if it falls down and could kill another 50 if it starts rolling forward. Anways my niece was right under the rock and it was at that point that the rock fell down - I ran at 1000 kmph and pushed her and got crushed Then my mom woke me up asking what happened.....I told her my niece died.....

29th of july

Hey, me still wainting for this srreejit fella to come out of the bathroom with my shift at 10....

Anyways the days are running are crazy.......this week has been y-cording and job shadowing with Mark.

Me failing in the final assessment and required to take it again in 3 weeks with a week gone already.

21st of july

pretty much the same routine over the past few days , tomorow is an assessment for the job. if successful , no retraining....i dont want to be retrained....

Got the CKDU portable recorder for the 'not yet planned interview with whom ???" i dont know.....:)

k k , nothingg much

love my family ,friends :(

july 16th....

its july 16th , this week was a dry fast week where we were introduced to SMART other softwares like sync , classroom suite etc.

not a special week at all...:(